What do you do when you choose happy, and can’t shake the sad, when you work for change and you’re still a mess?
What do you do when your bootstraps wear out, from pulling them ALL the time?
What do you do when your big girl panties seem to have shredded from all the pulling on?
Surrender
-Not to the pain, not to the fear, not to the anger, not to the cause, not to the doubt, worry and torment.
Surrender to God.
Let go, stop trying to be okay, and just surrender.
Stop telling yourself you’re okay.
Stop telling yourself it’s fine.
Stop telling yourself you’re “happy, strong, brilliant, powerful, enough, strong, etc. “
John 9:41
"Jesus said unto them, If ye were blind, ye should have no sin: but now ye say, We see; therefore your sin remaineth." If you admit you have need, you will be helped, if you pretend you are okay, you'll stay as you are.
We can come to God, broken down and a mess and say:
“I’m deaf, blind, weak, foolish, and depressed and I need your vision, guidance, wisdom, strength, peace, joy, charity, power, and blessings. I’m willful and rebellious and need your forgiveness and redirection. I’m angry and selfish and need Jesus' submissive and loving spirit. I’m beyond what I can do and need your grace. Open my closed mind (set in my own ideas), soften my hard heart ( resentful to you and others for not giving me what *I* want, what *I* think I need) and fill me with a knowledge of THY will and the power to carry it out with my whole heart.
If it’s meant to be, it’s up to thee. I’ll do my part, please fill my heart with THY will.
If it’s not thy will, stop me and change my heart against it.
If it’s not thy plan, change my view to see it.
If it’s right, comfort me and strengthen me to do it no matter the cost.
Bless me with a receptive heart and mind, a heart easy for you to move but immoveable from thy will. Anchor me firmly in truth, I give you the key to turn me when I’m wrong.
Wash me daily with thy righteousness, cut off from me what’s corrupt or decayed, and plant in me new life, restore to me what’s good and was lost.
Hold me close when I have to see the darkness I’m allowing in my heart, mind and soul and strengthen me to admit my failures and shortcomings, fill me with thy love, reassure me of thy power, will, and ability to save me, cleanse me, change me, and redeem me- lest THe Enemy come and tear me away and rob me of faith and hope. Hold me close while I face the pain and weakness in myself, hold me and heal me, anchor me in thy love, power, righteousness and light.
I am broken and worth healing. I am flawed and worth fixing. I’m dirty and worth cleansing. I’m incomplete and worth finishing. I’ve fallen apart and worth repairing. There’s nothing so broken or so disarrayed that you can’t restore, renew, redeem or resurrect.
I want your will, I want your way, I need your strength, I need your vision, I choose you and I surrender my ideas, my will, my plans, my desires, my passions, my thoughts, feelings, my appetites and everything else to you.
Not my will or my plan or my heart and mind, but yours for me and my life.
My heart, mind, soul, life, past present and future I give to you.
Change me, replace me with thee, I am yours.
Please take me as thine own, in Jesus Name, amen."
Then just obey. It’s not your job to make it work, it’s your job to heed His voice (take the steps He gives) and trust Him to do His will (what’s right for you and everyone else). Trust and let Him prevail.
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